It’s “Gotcha Day!”
We began by stopping off at a Russian supermarket to buy diapers, wipes, food, juice and other items. My stomach was in knots as we made our way down the snowy roads to our baby girl’s orphanage.
As we walked up the slippery path to the main door, I paused, turned to my amazing husband and gave him a kiss. “Are you ready to be a mom?” he asked? “Yes,” I replied without even thinking about it. “Are you ready to be a dad?” “Absolutely.”
When we got up to the third floor and saw our baby girl everything seemed to happen so fast. The caregivers, who were teary-eyed at her leaving already, had dressed C in a beautiful burgundy dress with a huge white bow. It means so much to us that they care for her as much as they do.
I quickly changed C into her outfit, which we brought from home. Derek went back to her group’s room and snapped pictures so that down the road she can see where she spent the first year of her life. We left out gifts with the caregivers and they gave us some last pieces of advice: “She loves bread,” “She’s used to being spoiled,” “She’s a very smart girl,” and well wishes: “We wish you a full and happy life,” “take good care of her!” As we were heading out, the caregivers stopped us and gave us a chocolate bar and wished us “Happy New Year.” We bundled here up and we were off to get her brother!
Celia fell asleep on the car ride to B’s home.
The three of us (plus our driver/translator—have I mentioned how AWESOME he is?!) got out of the car and trekked through the snow to B’s orphanage. We stopped at the director’s office and she suggested that C not g up to B’s group because she might get sick. Derek stayed in Dr. G’s office (the baby home directors are also pediatricians) with C while I went up to get B. After he was changed into the clothes we brought him—and I was chided for not dressing him in tights—our translator took some pictures of his group’s room, we handed out gifts and said our goodbyes and we went to join the rest of the family!
Our driver opened the door to Dr. G’s office and in B and I went. I swear, C’s face lit up the second we walked through. Bennett and Celia… Alim and Nargiza… brother and sister were united at last! Celia was simply enamored with her biological brother—which truly touched my heart, because I was always so enamored with my late brother, Trevor. Bennett on the other hand must have been thinking, “Who are you and why is my Papa holding you?” Ah! I can’t wait to see how their relationship blossoms. There is something truly special about a brother/sister bond—especially one with a backstory like this one.
Before we left, Dr. G insisted we feed them a small lunch. Celia was all about it. Bennett was nervous and it took him a few minutes to come around. Soon enough we were off to head back to our hotel! The drive took a bit longer than expected due to traffic and both of our kiddos got a 45 minute nap.
When we got “home” to our hotel, we played and played and played. Bennett was into EVERTHING! We will DEFINITELY have our hands full with this two-year-old boy! We took several walks around our hotel floor and looked out windows. It still amazes me that they are seeing SO much for the first time. First boat, first line of traffic, first view of the world from 6-flights up… Bennett was looking at his photo book and saw a picture of me, pointed, and said “Mama.” He then flipped to the picture of Derek and said, “Papa.” Papa and I both teared up. B was so quiet at every visit up until this point. Now he just talks and talks! I guess his caregiver was right, aybe he was just saving all of his gab for us!
We were able to get onto Skype and talk to all the grandparents at one time. (They all met at a McDonald’s while Derek’s mom was on a work break.) There were tears all around.
After the call, we fed them dinner (I sure hope we’re feeding them enough. For an inexperienced parent, it’s hard to tell). In a word, it was MESSY! We’re still trying to figure out the best way to get them to drink. They are used to drinking out of small tea cups. Hopefully either they’ll catch on to the sippy cup or we’ll learn how to help them pour the drink into their mouths. Then it was bath time. B LOVED his bath and could have played in there for hours! C… not so much. The poor thing cried and cried. We made it through though!
After a short visit from our in-country coordinator, we got ready for bed. Derek read them part of a “Soviet” folk tale as we rocked each of our adorable and cuddly little ones. Then I popped in the “Praise Baby Lullaby” Baby Einstein DVD that a dear friend gave us. B was entranced! C enjoyed it as well. The first song that played was “Indescribable.” Listening to the words, rocking with OUR babies in our arms at last, brought tears to Derek and my eyes. I don’t think we’ll be able to hear that song again without thinking of the indescribable miracle God granted us. God loved B and C so much that he had their parents fly more than half-way across the world (three times!) just to get them. And God loves us so much that he brought us all together in the most PERFECT way.
And then, we put them to bed.
Dear friends, I say goodnight to you as a mother who feels blessed infinitely more than I deserve. I have two beautiful, smart and lovable miracles to call my own. I truly don't feel like I know what I'm doing, but--for the first time in a long time--I like that feeling. God has had his hands in this for years and years. He's got us this far, and I can't wait to see where he takes us now! We are all in the best of hands! I'm SO GRATEFUL!
God is blessing us with our beautiful arrows—as always intended—through adoption, for our very own quiver of blessings. Join me along the way as I venture through marriage, parenthood and church planting in this crazy life He is calling me to live.
“…once our eyes are opened, we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act.”
~Proverbs 24:12
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Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Thursday, December 9, 2010
It’s Official! I’m a Mommy!
Just after 12:30 St. Petersburg time today, Thursday, December 09, 2010, a Russian judge formally approved our petition to be parents to Bennett Alim Trevor and Celia Rose Nargiza. With nine other people in the cramped, hot courtroom, Derek and I began a new chapter in our lives. One we have been waiting for for quite some time, and one that could only begin with the two children God preordained to be ours—our “B” an “C.”
Without further ado—and because it’s been a very long and very emotional day, and we have a flight to catch early tomorrow morning as long as the snow doesn’t get in the way—I’m going to cut this post short and introduce the world to our two little blessings.
Introducing the strong-willed and completely lovable Bennett Alim:
…and introducing the very popular and totally smooch-able Celia Rose:
PLEASE NOTE: I do not plan on posting photos of our babies on facebook until we are safely home.
As the judge was reading her verdict, I lost it and began to cry tears of joy immediately after I heard the judge say (via our translator), “I grant your petition…” I didn’t even pay attention to the rest! Good thing Derek kept his wits about him. He informed me as we left the courtroom that we are able to pick up our children as early as the 21st—Celia’s first birthday! Hooray! If all goes according to plan—which our agency representatives here in Russia believe that its should—we will be able to have all paperwork ready by the evening of the 21st, pick each of them up from their baby home on the 22nd (the day brother and sister will meet for the very first time!), and make it home by the evening of the 31st! We should begin the new year with our babies safely home!
Thank you all for your prayers and well-wishes. I feel I’m getting greedy, but if you think of it, pray for our travels home. Currently St. Petersburg is getting a lot—and I mean A LOT—of snow, and flights at our first layover destination have been canceled and postponed for the last day or so… There is so much yet to do at home and I am anxiously hoping and praying to make it back to get things accomplished this weekend.
LOVE YOU ALL!!!
WHAT AN AMAZING DAY!!!
Without further ado—and because it’s been a very long and very emotional day, and we have a flight to catch early tomorrow morning as long as the snow doesn’t get in the way—I’m going to cut this post short and introduce the world to our two little blessings.
Introducing the strong-willed and completely lovable Bennett Alim:
…and introducing the very popular and totally smooch-able Celia Rose:
PLEASE NOTE: I do not plan on posting photos of our babies on facebook until we are safely home.
As the judge was reading her verdict, I lost it and began to cry tears of joy immediately after I heard the judge say (via our translator), “I grant your petition…” I didn’t even pay attention to the rest! Good thing Derek kept his wits about him. He informed me as we left the courtroom that we are able to pick up our children as early as the 21st—Celia’s first birthday! Hooray! If all goes according to plan—which our agency representatives here in Russia believe that its should—we will be able to have all paperwork ready by the evening of the 21st, pick each of them up from their baby home on the 22nd (the day brother and sister will meet for the very first time!), and make it home by the evening of the 31st! We should begin the new year with our babies safely home!
Thank you all for your prayers and well-wishes. I feel I’m getting greedy, but if you think of it, pray for our travels home. Currently St. Petersburg is getting a lot—and I mean A LOT—of snow, and flights at our first layover destination have been canceled and postponed for the last day or so… There is so much yet to do at home and I am anxiously hoping and praying to make it back to get things accomplished this weekend.
LOVE YOU ALL!!!
WHAT AN AMAZING DAY!!!
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Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Checking In
I'm short on time and feel even shorter on brain function. It has been... *deep breath* ...a truly AMAZING few days. With the absolutely miraculous success of our yard sale (thanks to so many of you), the overwhelming joy I felt with my loving friends at our "babies" shower, and—most recently—the wonderful news of my Dad's continued health even after three prior diagnoses of liver cancer, I have experienced some of the most amazing days of my life. God has been all over it, and it's awesome.
But... *another deep breath* ...I'm a little overwhelmed.
A friend of mine was talking to me about my blog tonight. She said that she just loved following along and really felt that my writing was a true window into all that we're experiencing. At first, I thought she was talking about our time in Russia. But the post she referred to was my most recent one—probably the one I've been the most nervous to share. So... I suppose it's time to be raw again...
While I am experiencing all these TRULY AMAZING blessings, I'm struggling a little. Two weeks ago I met our breathtakingly beautiful children. My life has since forever changed.
A little more than a week ago, I had to leave them...
I came back to the biggest yard sale ever, the resulting clutter that remained and disorganization, a thoughtful shower, a huge work deadline (or two, or three...) To put it lightly, I've been busy. But now... now, it's starting to catch up to me. I miss our B and C. I wish we didn't have to leave them. I wish B would be able to celebrate his second birthday next week with his parents by his side. I wish C would have us to smother her neck with kisses. I wish I was freezing my behind off in Russia. I wish I was with them...
*sigh*
So... that's what's been going on in my head the last few days. Don't get me wrong, I'm so unbelievably beyond grateful for all the many blessings. But... I just miss our kiddos...
But... *another deep breath* ...I'm a little overwhelmed.
A friend of mine was talking to me about my blog tonight. She said that she just loved following along and really felt that my writing was a true window into all that we're experiencing. At first, I thought she was talking about our time in Russia. But the post she referred to was my most recent one—probably the one I've been the most nervous to share. So... I suppose it's time to be raw again...
While I am experiencing all these TRULY AMAZING blessings, I'm struggling a little. Two weeks ago I met our breathtakingly beautiful children. My life has since forever changed.
A little more than a week ago, I had to leave them...
I came back to the biggest yard sale ever, the resulting clutter that remained and disorganization, a thoughtful shower, a huge work deadline (or two, or three...) To put it lightly, I've been busy. But now... now, it's starting to catch up to me. I miss our B and C. I wish we didn't have to leave them. I wish B would be able to celebrate his second birthday next week with his parents by his side. I wish C would have us to smother her neck with kisses. I wish I was freezing my behind off in Russia. I wish I was with them...
*sigh*
So... that's what's been going on in my head the last few days. Don't get me wrong, I'm so unbelievably beyond grateful for all the many blessings. But... I just miss our kiddos...
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Different Perspective
I'm going to be honest. I am so indescribably thankful to everyone who has donated items or money for our yard sale and to help us bring our children home… but this outpouring of love has been difficult for me to receive.
Truth be told, I didn’t have many friends in school. In eighth grade, I was the tall, lanky girl who had to sit at the edge of the lunch table by herself and was made fun of for being so skinny. Yeah, yeah, I know… You can hear the violin playing. But I’m not writing this for pity. Since then, for whatever reason, I have struggled with accepting love and assistance from friends.
I called my mom today to tell her about all the new items that were left in or just outside of our garage and explained to her how I felt. “I’m so undeserving of all of this. So unworthy of all this love,” I said. That’s not the right attitude—I know that and she reminded me of it. She proceeded to tell me how meaningful it was to her that people are reaching out to her daughter like this. The sacrificial love that everyone is showing is just so amazing.
And then it hit me and my perception changed.
All of this—the donated items, the gifts, the encouragement, the time and effort, the excitement—it’s all really for…my children. This love is for my children! And this new mother’s heart is so thankful that people are loving B and C before ever meeting them. It’s not about feeling deserving or not, it’s about being able to witness the love our extended family (read: our friends) is anxiously bestowing upon our kiddos. I’ve never experienced a feeling like this before. I’m praising God for all of this, there is no doubt!
Truth be told, I didn’t have many friends in school. In eighth grade, I was the tall, lanky girl who had to sit at the edge of the lunch table by herself and was made fun of for being so skinny. Yeah, yeah, I know… You can hear the violin playing. But I’m not writing this for pity. Since then, for whatever reason, I have struggled with accepting love and assistance from friends.
I called my mom today to tell her about all the new items that were left in or just outside of our garage and explained to her how I felt. “I’m so undeserving of all of this. So unworthy of all this love,” I said. That’s not the right attitude—I know that and she reminded me of it. She proceeded to tell me how meaningful it was to her that people are reaching out to her daughter like this. The sacrificial love that everyone is showing is just so amazing.
And then it hit me and my perception changed.
All of this—the donated items, the gifts, the encouragement, the time and effort, the excitement—it’s all really for…my children. This love is for my children! And this new mother’s heart is so thankful that people are loving B and C before ever meeting them. It’s not about feeling deserving or not, it’s about being able to witness the love our extended family (read: our friends) is anxiously bestowing upon our kiddos. I’ve never experienced a feeling like this before. I’m praising God for all of this, there is no doubt!
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